grief

  • It’s Been Five Years…

    It’s Been Five Years…

    I am having a hard time picking a place to start with writing this post. Over the last week, I reflected on what I want to say, but it gets jumbled up every time. I am more in amazement that it has been five years. It sure as hell doesn’t feel like it. Driving to

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  • Reverse Logic

    Reverse Logic

    I am slowly becoming a fan of audiobooks. I hate reading, but I do enjoy listening. I guess that fed into my passion of mental health counseling. I am honestly just happy I found a way to enjoy books after grad school practically ruined reading for me. My newest obsession is The Subtle Art of

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  • Sometimes All You Can Do Is Try

    I have been trying so hard to get back on my once-a-week writing schedule, but again life got in the way. The keyword lately has been try. That’s all I have been doing. I am trying to stay afloat. I try to give it my all at work. I try to push through the pain,

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  • Movin’ On Up

    Movin’ On Up

    I laid there. Taking it all in. A half empty closet. Cleared out dressers. Dust bunnies strewn across the floor. One corner with a TV and Nintendo Switch sitting up on the shelf. There wasn’t much else left to this room. Most of its contents were already removed and transported across the river to my

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  • His Last Gifts

    His Last Gifts

    So you know, yesterday (February 27th) would have been your 66th birthday. Although it has gotten easier to manage my feelings around anniversaries and holidays, it doesn’t mean I miss you any less. It’s been just over two years and three birthdays since you left this world. At least in the physical sense. I still

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  • Missing You Big Time

    Missing You Big Time

    Dad, I miss you. I don’t know why, but this holiday season seems to be hitting harder than last. I mean, I think I know why, but my heart hurts more so. I definitely felt it more after attending your brother’s memorial service. RIP Uncle Sam. Our family came together and showed their unconditional love

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  • I’m a day late on this one but for good reason. I purposely avoided social media yesterday. Distancing myself from the white noise made the day easier. Especially when the day serves as a bittersweet reminder. As much of a Hallmark holiday as it might be, holidays like Father’s Day carry meaning. It’s a day

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  • I Can’t Even.

    I Can’t Even.

    Fridays are for fun! My idea of fun this last Friday was driving an hour to meet with my accountant and do my taxes at 8:30 in the morning. Friday? More like Fri-yay! Am I right? Since I decided to avoid the tolls, my GPS took me on the scenic route. It added maybe five

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  • Happy Birthday, Ya Old Fart.

    Happy Birthday, Ya Old Fart.

    This will be your second birthday that you will not be here in your corporeal form. As your birthday nears and I see the date growing nearer, I am served this constant reminder. Has it gotten easier since we lost you in the physical world? No. Absolutely not. Has the intensity of the grief subsided?

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  • Dear Dad: One Year Later

    Dear Dad: One Year Later

    Dear Dad, , I know we talk every day, but it has been a year since I last wrote to you. It’s been a fucking year. Holy shit. I remember driving to my client’s house at around 12:30 on Halloween last year when your wife called me hysterically crying. She couldn’t even get the words

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