feelings

  • Toilet Vs. Mirror

    Toilet Vs. Mirror

    Perseverating takes the mind places it never thought it could go. Just like my one client of over two years. This is easily her brain’s favorite pastime. Some anxiety-provoking thought will cross her mind, and her consciousness latches onto it. Only for it never to be let go. She and I refer to this as

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  • Even With The Anticipation

    My poor medicine cabinet looks like a back alley pharmacy. On a typical day, I take 8-9 medications and/or vitamins. That’s a good amount for a younger guy like me. I don’t like it.  Following a couple of recent medical appointments, the topic arose of lowering my psych meds. At the time, I was on

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  • Beat Up. Beat Down.

    Beat Up. Beat Down.

    Tonight’s post takes on more of a raw vent session. I haven’t written in a few weeks, and lord knows I need it. I am at my wit’s end. For a while now, life pummels me with obstacle after obstacle. I walk through one door only to be smacked in the face by the next.

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  • Making a Conscious Effort

    The phrase of week coined by my therapist. With all that is happening around me, those words are that much more important. Unfortunately, following a slew of anxiety-provoking events, I find myself clamming up. It’s been consistently growing more difficult to remain vulnerable around others. I really want to stay to myself. However, I know

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  • Have Patience

    Have Patience

    Without disclosing too much, I’m dealing with a situation at work that’s ramping up my anxiety. It’s been dragging for somewhere between 2 and 3 weeks. The best part? Nobody had any information about what’s going on. I don’t know what I’m being accused of. I don’t know what my job is investigating. They haven’t

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  • There’s Levels To This

    Welp. I forgot to write three posts last month, so now I have to do four this month. If I end this post here, does it count? I kid. I am actually following up on my last post about slowing down and taking a moment when needed. To say the least, I could’ve done better

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  • Remember to Breathe

    Remember to Breathe

    Go. Go. Go. That’s been my motto for 2025. Seldom do I get a moment to myself. Since the start of the year, it feels like every waking moment is dedicated to helping everyone else. Overall, I’m fine with that. I love helping other people. However, it comes with a cost. As a result, I’ve

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  • This Month Was SICK

    This Month Was SICK

    Everyone around me has been getting sick and not with the same ailments. It started with a few clients complaining about a stomach bug that hit them hard. Throwing up, sharp stomach pain, and fatigue that lasted for 3-5 days. Ew. Friends of mine getting hit with an upper respiratory virus that lingered for weeks.

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  • Adjustment

    Adjustment

    I never did well with change. Most humans don’t. We are creatures of habit. Knowing provides us with the illusion of control. However, this is totally unrealistic. I lay here in bed preparing for my fifth year as an adjunct psychology professor. You’d think by now that I’d be used to the routine, right? You

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  • Hope for the Best. Prepare for the Worst.

    Lately, I’ve been tapping into a saying my dad drilled through my thick skull. “Hope for the best. Prepare for the worst.” I feel like a broken record this holiday season. This statement flew out of my mouth at least a couple dozen times in the aforementioned time frame. My dad and whoever coined the

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