Personal Reminders

  • Open Letter to My Anxiety

    Hey you. Yeah, you. We need to talk. I don’t know how to say it, so I’m just going to say it. This relationship just isn’t working. Seriously, let’s face the facts. We have been off and on for the last fifteen years. You come and go as you want. I lost count how many…

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  • In Response To…

    In Response To…

    I always wanted my blog to be an open, honest platform. I want this to be a safe place- not only for me, but also my readers and guest writers. Last week, with this idea in mind, I hesitantly opened up about a deep-rooted personal struggle with women and borderline sex addiction. I begrudgingly hit…

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  • Feeding The Lion

    Feeding The Lion

    ****NSFW language right from the beginning. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.**** I fucked up. There is no hiding it. This is not the time to minimalize it. I made a mistake. I relapsed on an old habit. For those of you who know me personally or who have bee following my blog over the…

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  • What Could Possibly Go Wrong?

    *****WARNING: Some NSFW language in this post***** This was one of those weeks where I literally wanted to stand in front of my calendar and just…. It felt like everything that could go wrong went wrong. It was not just in one area though. Life flung bullshit my way from every which direction. Shit not…

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  • Hold On. Pain Ends.

    Hold On. Pain Ends.

    The last few weeks brought their fair share of pain – both emotional and then physical. Family got under my skin on multiple occasions, feeding into increased feelings of anxiety. It definitely resurrected old feelings of inadequacy, embarrassment, and shame. Couple that with relationship struggles, there was an emotional void the size of the Grand…

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  • No Strain, No Gain

    No Strain, No Gain

    Holidays are meant to be a time of celebration (and help Hallmark’s stocks). However, for many, there is a darker side to them. With Mother’s Day 2019 upon us, it serves as a grim reminder for those without their mother or for mothers without their offspring. These relationships are strained for a range of reasons…

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  • The Reward Is Not In The Pay

    As with any helping profession, working in mental health beats the crap out of you emotionally. It can be difficult to maintain a positive attitude and instill hope in your clientele when you listen to severe trauma and stressed out individuals all day long. Throw in the fact of maintaining administrative duties on a supervisor…

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  • F*ck It All

    F*ck It All

    *****Warning***** NSFW language in this post. You have been warned. I saw all the warning signs. I woke up randomly in the middle of the night and could not fall back asleep. This happened several nights in a row. My thoughts held their own Daytona 500, going in circles making left turns all day. In…

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  • Old Feelings

    Old Feelings

    I get slightly irked when I hear people saying “move on,” “let it go,” or some variation of these phrases. What most people fail to realize is that our experiences become part of our memories and ultimately part of us. You cannot amputate your memories. They follow you throughout your lifetime. This is why I…

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  • Overcoming Guilt

    Overcoming Guilt

    In Greek mythology, before the era of the Olympians, the Titans reigned supreme. One of these mighty Titans was named Atlas. The Titans waged war against the Olympian gods led by Zues, and Atlas sided with the Titans. The Olympians triumphed over the Titans. As part of his punishment, Atlas was condemned to carry the…

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